Let’s get started

19 Nov

Someone suggested I start a blog. I’m not sure how this will go, but here goes. This is just going to be my thoughts, feelings and things I find along the way.

Today I thought about starting a cookbook. Here’s the first recipe as I posted it on Facebook.

My favorite is “Whatchagot stew”. A package of meat from the freezer in the bottom of the pot. Yes, frozen. Who plans anymore? Add any and all veggies hanging out in the bottom of the chiller drawer, even the wilted ones. Some potatoes and onions if you got them. A can or two of whatever veggies you have in the cupboard and maybe a can of beans(with the liquid, potatoes always need salt). Add a seasoning packet or two from a ramen package, save the noodle part for later. Add some water, usually half a pot, don’t worry, it’ll make more. Let sit on low all day or high if you started at noon when you realize you forgot to plan dinner. Just before eating, check for taste. Probably needs salt, remember those potatoes? Also pepper, garlic powder, parsley if you’re lucky enough to have it. Now crush up those ramen noodles you saved from earlier and add them. Stir through. By the time you find all the kids and get them washed and to the table, dinner is ready. Just add milk and bread and butter. Said kids will love you forever. Or at least until you take away their phone for not taking out the garbage and helping with the dishes. Enjoy!

I also need a place besides Facebook to keep my Gratitude List.

  • Today I’m grateful to really start a blog. I hope it goes well. I’m grateful to be feeling better from my tooth extraction. It’s making me spunky. Grateful to have my child here today. No matter how often we fight, argue and generally disagree, I always have his back. I remember a time when he wasn’t sleeping across the room. LOVES

Trading vegetables

23 Feb

I’ve been doing this new diet for almost a month and while it’s been satisfying, it also has its challenges. Here are my top two.

How to afford to eat healthy? It is so much cheaper to use rice and pasta as the main part of a meal and use meat and veggies as the enhancers. But to concentrate on the vegetables and lean protein with lots to no carb heavy foods is tough on a limited budget. I’ll admit that I’ve eaten lots of peanut butter this month so that I could afford the vegetables. I’m hoping that as I get more practice, I will do better with budgeting.

When you add vegetables to your diet, you are adding fiber and roughage, which leads to digestion issues. Good ones and not so good ones. You tend to feel fuller longer, but your methane production is greater. Sometimes I wonder what died! It gets bad. I’m hoping that as I continue, my gut will acclimatize and it will get better.

  • I’m grateful that I’ve been able to do this for a month. That means it’s one step closer to becoming a habit. I’m grateful to be in recovery because I’m using the 12 steps knowledge I’ve learned around my eating. I’m really grateful to have lost almost 20 pounds.

Night all. LOVES


Surprised at the store

22 Feb

I braved the wild weather to get to the store today. Actually, it was sunny, the roads weren’t too bad, and I got a ride so there wasn’t any braving anything. Except the packed grocery store with three kids. Which is pretty brave when you think about it.

I was actually reading labels and thinking about what to buy instead of getting the same old things I always get. Mostly because I can’t eat those things anymore.

And was I surprised. Did you know that in my store, chicken wings were twice as expensive as the thighs? Wednesday isn’t a good day to buy eggs because their delivery is tomorrow. The shelves were empty! It was the same price to buy fresh carrots, broccoli and snow peas as it was to buy frozen. Trying to find low carb peanut butter(the one without all the additives) without spending enough to buy a small nation is difficult. If you tell said children that they can have a surprise but they have to share it, they will actually get along momentarily until they get it picked out.

It was a good trip overall. I didn’t spend lots. I have enough to hopefully get through the next week. And I think ONE Oreo is plenty for a treat. Although two was pretty good.

  • I’m grateful to get a ride to the store today. I’m grateful to be full and happy. I’m grateful the child cooked his dinner. And ate it.

Night all. LOVES

Guest post

21 Feb

Today is going to be a guest post from my younger sister. This is a straight up copy and paste job from her Facebook page. Because she says so eloquently what I’ve been thinking.

~The problem with school shootings aren’t guns or the need for lack of access. You want something bad enough, you find a way.
The problem began with the idea that a persons worth is a few clicks and some likes. If a person gets any texts that day. When everyone started to receive trophies regardless if they sat on the bench or ran their ass off in the race. When bullying was brushed aside with boys will be boys, girls will be girls or they’re mean to you because they like you. The problem began when porn became too accessible and young boys and girls devalued what should be something cherished and valued. When reality TV became the norm and kids who did nothing became famous millionaires on YouTube. “Cash me outside, how bough dat!” The problem began when parents chose divorce rather than pulling up their boot straps and making things work as a team. The problem began when psychotropic drugs were given to our kids like candy and the change it caused in their thoughts and behavior. Prescription drugs that took my mothers own life and the life of two of my favorite rock star legends. Prince and Tom Petty. The problem continues when we have real people like Bernie Sanders who runs for President who could actually have made a difference. Then as a nation, people choose to vote for the least qualified man because they want change so badly and when they get it, they blame it on the Russians. The problem continues and will continue until we stop whining and take responsibility. Take responsibility that regardless of race, creed, or color, we are ALL part of the problem.
Now what? Now when? ~ Wendy Carson

  • I’m grateful to have such an amazing writer in my family. It must be in our genes. I’m grateful to my other sister for reminding me that I matter. I’m really grateful to know that this new diet is working. I’ve lost 19 pounds since the first of the year.

Night all. LOVES

Parenting is hard

20 Feb

There wasn’t school today because of the holiday so I let my son stay up later than usual last night. Also, because of the snow and the way the city reacts to it, I knew we weren’t going anywhere today. So I figured some extra time would be okay.

I went in at 10 and told him it was bedtime and to turn everything off. I went in at 11 and told him the same thing. I went in again at midnight and told him if he didn’t get off the phone, he wasn’t going to be a happy camper. He said he was getting off and I went to sleep because I trusted him to follow through.

I woke up about 5 am with a low sugar reading and when I went by his room, he was STILL AWAKE AND ON HIS PHONE! I told him to put it away right now and he wasn’t allowed to have it all day.

Now its evening and he hasn’t been on it all day, but only because he’s slept on and off all day. He has just now started to stir. I really want to tell him that he can’t have it tomorrow if it’s a snow day because he slept all day.

My dilemma is, am I being a good parent or a vindictive parent because he didn’t get his consequences the way I thought he should? Why is parenting so hard? I suppose I’ll do what I feel is right when the time comes. I’ll pray about it and wait to see if it’s a snow day tomorrow.

  • I’m grateful for the snow. Everything was quiet today. I’m grateful that we don’t have to be in a warming shelter this evening. I’m grateful we didn’t need to fight the weather to get anywhere today.

Night all. LOVES

The siege has arrived

19 Feb

It snowed! Depending on where exactly you live, it was a little or a lot. The higher your elevation or further north you are were hit the heaviest.

I think that is one if the amazing things about Portland Oregon. The city goes from sea level to over a 1000 feet in elevation all within the Metro Area limits. So some places require chains to get in and out and others are whining about why there’s such a big deal being made.

I finally let my child walk to the store to get a gallon of milk. He wanted a soda and I made him earn it. So I think we’re set. The weatherdudes are saying its going to be sunny and warm by Tuesday.

  • I’m grateful there’s no school tomorrow. Although it would have been nice to get at least one snow day this year. Tomorrow is already a holiday so it won’t count. I’m grateful the wind didn’t take out any trees or power poles so we still have lights and electronic devices. I’m grateful I have some jello in the cupboard. I think I’m going to make some jigglers.

Night all. LOVES

Preparing for a siege?

18 Feb

Portland and winter weather are not friends. Rain is great. Everybody just get your rain gear and throw it on over your hoodie. Don’t need an umbrella because real Portlanders don’t use umbrellas. If the wind is bad, let’s go to the coast and watch the waves.

Those are common statements I have heard in the almost 20 years I’ve lived in Oregon. I think it’s cute. Everyone is great when it rains. But if there’s a chance of snow in the forecast? Everyone panics. Make sure you have your generator ready. Better go buy all the bread and milk you can fit on your bike.

They are closing down the plant sale behind us early because it’s supposed to snow tomorrow down to maybe 1000 feet. My house is 150 feet, give or take a few. And if I’m upstairs or not. So the odds of getting snow isn’t great.

But I still checked to make sure we had enough groceries for a few days because going to the store before a storm is madness! Think hurricanes in Florida madness.

We have plenty of blankets in case the power goes out. Heavy rain and high winds are not a tree’s best friends. And if the tree falls, the power might go out. But, whatever happens, we should be okay.

Except as I was making dinner, I forgot to pull my portion out before I added all the other stuff to the hamburger and now I think I’m getting peanut butter oatmeal. I made homemade hamburger helper. I better go make some more veggies.

  • I’m grateful to have a sense of humor about the craziness of life. I’m grateful to have food in the house that fits in my diet. Even if I don’t always like it. I’m grateful I know I can figure it out when something isn’t perfect. Enjoy the weather. I have my umbrella!

Night all. LOVES


My newest medicine

16 Feb

I have been taking Bydureon for 3 weeks. It’s helping with lowering my sugar numbers and I’m taking less insulin. I only take one injection a week of this new medicine. So that’s the good things.

And now the bad things. Too low of blood sugar numbers as we adjust my insulin. I feel yucky as I become adjusted to the medicine. It gives me a stomach ache and nausea. And it hurts at the injection site.

Today, it was almost like the needle was dull. I know that as a recovering IV drug user and a long time insulin user, I should be used to poking myself with a needle, but sometimes it’s just really hard for me to do it again and again.

I suppose it’s a good thing that I think about it every time I inject medication because it reminds me of where I don’t want to be again. I know that this injection is good for me. But I think I’m going to go lie down for a while anyway.

  • I’m grateful that this new medicine seems to be doing its job. I’m grateful that I’m in recovery so that I am trying to take care of myself. I’m grateful that I only take this medicine once a week. I think I might balk at doing it every day. At least for a while.

Night all. LOVES