Let’s get started

19 Nov

Someone suggested I start a blog. I’m not sure how this will go, but here goes. This is just going to be my thoughts, feelings and things I find along the way.

Today I thought about starting a cookbook. Here’s the first recipe as I posted it on Facebook.

My favorite is “Whatchagot stew”. A package of meat from the freezer in the bottom of the pot. Yes, frozen. Who plans anymore? Add any and all veggies hanging out in the bottom of the chiller drawer, even the wilted ones. Some potatoes and onions if you got them. A can or two of whatever veggies you have in the cupboard and maybe a can of beans(with the liquid, potatoes always need salt). Add a seasoning packet or two from a ramen package, save the noodle part for later. Add some water, usually half a pot, don’t worry, it’ll make more. Let sit on low all day or high if you started at noon when you realize you forgot to plan dinner. Just before eating, check for taste. Probably needs salt, remember those potatoes? Also pepper, garlic powder, parsley if you’re lucky enough to have it. Now crush up those ramen noodles you saved from earlier and add them. Stir through. By the time you find all the kids and get them washed and to the table, dinner is ready. Just add milk and bread and butter. Said kids will love you forever. Or at least until you take away their phone for not taking out the garbage and helping with the dishes. Enjoy!

I also need a place besides Facebook to keep my Gratitude List.

  • Today I’m grateful to really start a blog. I hope it goes well. I’m grateful to be feeling better from my tooth extraction. It’s making me spunky. Grateful to have my child here today. No matter how often we fight, argue and generally disagree, I always have his back. I remember a time when he wasn’t sleeping across the room. LOVES

Thursday October 18, 2018

19 Oct

I’ve discovered an interesting side effect from surgery/weight loss. My ability to self regulate my temperature is non-existent. I’m either way to hot and sweating or I’m freezing! I just can’t seem to find a happy medium.

I’ve spent the day either huddled under a bunch of blankets shivering or trying to stay clothed enough to be decent. Sometimes only minutes apart.

  • I’m grateful to have lots of blankets to cover up with. I’m grateful I have a door that shuts when I wanna get nekid. I’m grateful that it’s going to be winter soon because I’ll ALWAYS be cold.

Night all. LOVES

In the 100 pound club

18 Oct

I saw my Primary Care Physician today. First time since my surgery. Just kind of a check up and how’s it going type of thing.

They ALWAYS have you weigh in when they take you back to the room. As of today, I have lost 101 pounds from my heaviest weight ever. And 30 pounds since surgery.

It’s nice to see that all pain, suffering and annoyances are starting to pay off. Tomorrow will be 3 weeks since surgery and I realized that I’m only halfway to where they will release me to go back to normal. So I have time. No matter how much it bugs me to wait.

  • I’m grateful to my friend for a ride today. The first thing I did when I came home was take a nap because I was exhausted. I’m grateful to find some non-gritty protein water at the store today. Now to find them somewhere cheaper! I’m grateful to have NOT thrown up today. I’m back to measuring everything before I eat.

Night all. LOVES

Tuesday October 16, 2018

16 Oct

Its been a really slow day. Just sleeping, lots. And eating, little. Just not feeling it today.

  • I’m grateful to know that eventually, according to all the sources, I will feel better. I’m grateful that I haven’t thrown up yet today. Knock on wood! I’m grateful I’m still trying to stay positive and just breathe.

Night all. LOVES

Monday October 15, 2018

16 Oct

I do not have enough energy in a day. A shower, trying to make some applesauce and dinner and I’m done for the day. And that’s with TWO naps today. I know I need to heal, I just wish it didn’t take forever to get there.

  • I’m grateful for getting help with my dishes. I’m grateful for soup for dinner. I’m grateful to have another day.

Night all. LOVES

This eating thing.

14 Oct

Trying to figure out how much to eat and when has become the new game. I have menus and sample eating plans but those aren’t always helpful.

Yesterday, I made a cup of soup with some boxed chicken broth and some ground turkey I cooked yesterday. 1 cup of broth with 2 oz of turkey, just like the plan said. I was only able to eat half of it before I had to put it down. It took 2 meals to eat it all! I tried the same thing today and I ended up throwing up when I ate the second half.

I don’t want to throw up. It very painful. The doctor doesn’t want be to throw up. I could pop open my stitches.

So now I struggle to eat enough but not too much. And to get enough fluid in me. Breathing doesn’t quite fill the belly. But its close.

  • I’m grateful I know to keep trying. I’m grateful to be getting plenty of sleep. I’m grateful for my friend going grocery shopping for me.

Night all. LOVES

I’m sooo tired!

14 Oct

I have been out of surgery for 2 weeks. Home for one. And it seems like all I’m doing is sleeping! I have stuff that needs done. I have a house that needs cleaned. Especially after my house guests were here. I have a kid that likes to eat at regular intervals. I need to eat at regular intervals. And I’m just tired. I go downstairs and I’m tired. Trying to go out and visit with the neighbors is next to impossible. I’m not even going to attempt church this week. And I really wanted to. I miss the love, support and fellowship I get there. I feel stuck in a little box with a bed and a chair because I get too tired when I leave it for more the 15 minutes. I thought I was ready for this and I had all my supports in place, but that didn’t work out the way it was supposed to. So now I make do with what I got because they can’t put that half a stomach back in now.

  • I’m grateful I can get up for 20-30 minutes at a time. Its getting longer every day. I’m grateful my bed is so comfy considering how much I get to stay in it. I’m grateful that I’ve learned my tolerance level before its too late and I can get back to my bed.

Night all. LOVES

Friday October 12, 2018

13 Oct

I’ve had to figure out the hard way that I’m not as healed as I would like to be. All I’ve done today is spend most of today in bed asleep. Just because I was out and about yesterday. And I’m ready to go back to sleep and it’s only 6:30pm. I guess today is over and I’ll start over tomorrow.

  • I’m grateful to have the opportunity to heal. There are some who don’t. I’m grateful that tuna fish is staying in. One more thing I can add to my menu rotation. I’m grateful for the upcoming weekend. Nothing major planned.

Night all. LOVES