Let’s get started

19 Nov

Someone suggested I start a blog. I’m not sure how this will go, but here goes. This is just going to be my thoughts, feelings and things I find along the way.

Today I thought about starting a cookbook. Here’s the first recipe as I posted it on Facebook.

My favorite is “Whatchagot stew”. A package of meat from the freezer in the bottom of the pot. Yes, frozen. Who plans anymore? Add any and all veggies hanging out in the bottom of the chiller drawer, even the wilted ones. Some potatoes and onions if you got them. A can or two of whatever veggies you have in the cupboard and maybe a can of beans(with the liquid, potatoes always need salt). Add a seasoning packet or two from a ramen package, save the noodle part for later. Add some water, usually half a pot, don’t worry, it’ll make more. Let sit on low all day or high if you started at noon when you realize you forgot to plan dinner. Just before eating, check for taste. Probably needs salt, remember those potatoes? Also pepper, garlic powder, parsley if you’re lucky enough to have it. Now crush up those ramen noodles you saved from earlier and add them. Stir through. By the time you find all the kids and get them washed and to the table, dinner is ready. Just add milk and bread and butter. Said kids will love you forever. Or at least until you take away their phone for not taking out the garbage and helping with the dishes. Enjoy!

I also need a place besides Facebook to keep my Gratitude List.

  • Today I’m grateful to really start a blog. I hope it goes well. I’m grateful to be feeling better from my tooth extraction. It’s making me spunky. Grateful to have my child here today. No matter how often we fight, argue and generally disagree, I always have his back. I remember a time when he wasn’t sleeping across the room. LOVES

Friday, November 16, 2018

17 Nov

Really short today. Had my glaucoma/diabetic eye exam this afternoon. I always have a reaction to the eye drops that gives me a killer headache for the next 24 hours.

  • I’m grateful I didn’t have to drive home or ride the bus. I’m grateful to find some sugarfree ice cream today. I’m grateful to not have to get up early for the next 10 days.

Night all. LOVES

Thursday, November 15, 2018

16 Nov

Today was a stay at home day. After the last 2 days, I really needed a quiet day to rest. But I did get the dishes done, some socks sorted, and a shower. And I had an appointment this afternoon here at the house with a county disability worker. Its time for the yearly paperwork. Even with a quiet day, I’m so ready for bedtime.

  • I’m grateful today to accomplish the tasks I set before myself last night for today. I’m grateful for some bringing me some homemade butternut squash soup. I’m grateful my house still looks great. We’re doing a good job of keeping it up.

Night all. LOVES

Getting back on the bus

14 Nov

My child had an appointment this morning so he’s home for the rest of the day. That happens when you ride the bus. By the time he got to school after, it would be almost time to come home. It wouldn’t be bad if they weren’t at a temporary building while theirs is being rebuilt. Its an hour in traffic by car. Sometimes almost 2 by bus.

The other problem with the bus is it isn’t door-to-door service. Usually at least 2-3 blocks to the bus stop. But sometimes as many as 6-8, sometimes more. That’s lots of walking for someone still recovering from major surgery. I’m used to puttering around the house and yard. Long bus rides haven’t been on my radar since September.

I’m so tired and everything hurts. I wonder if he will mind cereal for dinner? Because I’m not sure I’m up to cooking. Good thing I have some hard boiled eggs in the fridge. I know its definitely naptime.

  • I’m grateful to make it to the appointment AND home. I’m grateful I don’t need to go anywhere else today. I’m grateful to realize I needed to cancel an appointment for later this week. There’s no way I could do 2 in one day.

Night all. LOVES

Tuesday November 13, 2018

14 Nov

Just a short blip on the radar to remind myself that I’m thankful for so many things.

  • I’m grateful to get to my monthly housing meeting. And stay for the entire thing. I’m grateful to get a ride home. I’m not quit THAT ready for the world yet. I’m grateful to run into my eldest on the bus today. It was the best 5 minutes of my day.

Night all. LOVES

Middle of the night choices

13 Nov

Just woke up from a bad dream. There were drugs and alcohol, fighting and conflict, crying and heartbreak. Definitely not much happiness. In the end, I had to choose between the most important things in the world to me. So what if I chose wrong. What if the choices I made condemned us all to a life of pain, misery and heartache?

In the end of my dream, just before I woke up, maybe its WHY I woke up, I refused to choose. I couldn’t do it. So I guess I DID choose in the end. And the thing is? I felt as peace with my decision. I knew that no matter what, things were going to be OK and that it would work out.

The funny thing is, in real life, I did choose between them. And I have lots of guilt about it. But in the end, I believed it was the best choice available. The lesser of two evils.

So what is the reasoning behind my dream? Maybe if I had to go back and do it over, would the outcome be any different? I don’t know. I DO know that I’ll never know how it COULD have been. I just get to know how it is. And I get to learn to be at peace with my decision. And to realize that everything will work out the way it was supposed to.

So will I go back to sleep with a peaceful heart and mind. No, not yet. I will probably think about it some more and hope I did the right thing. But I will practice giving it over to my higher power and praying for peace. And knowing that for now, I AM at peace with the knowledge that choosing to not use will only help in the long run. And that I will eventually get peace with the other decisions I’ve made in my past. Just need to remember to breathe. And to just keep swimming.

  • I AM grateful to have a nightmare because it offers me a chance to think and ponder. I AM grateful to have my writing so that I can organize my thoughts. I AM grateful to my Higher Power. I know that if I listen to that still small voice, I will hear the promptings to help choose the right in my future.

Night all. At least in a little while. LOVES

Veterans Day

12 Nov

I am so grateful to all the veterans who at one time or another gave everything they had to fight for my freedom. Especially the ability to share my thoughts and feelings when something really annoys me.

Yes, I know yesterday was technically Veterans Day. But some government officials decided ALL holidays should fall on Mondays. I’m waiting for them to get enough umph behind The Fourth of July, Christmas, and Thanksgiving to change THEM too.

Some other enterprising people decided that since nobody is at work on holidays, they should be shopping. So they have HUGE sales on everything. Maybe even their mother & their children?

So now we have holidays that aren’t really holidays and sales that make ME want to stay as far away from stores as possible. I wish my local grocery store was open in the middle of the night so I don’t have to have people everywhere while I’m in the store.

So on this day where we should be honoring those who live and die for our country, people are deciding if the blue or pink sweatshirt would go better with those purple pants.

  • I’m grateful to those in all branches of the military who are always on the front lines at home and abroad to make this country the land of the free and the home of the brave. I’m grateful to live in this country. I’m grateful for firefighters and other first responders who spend long, hard hours protecting our homes and people.

Night all. LOVES

Sunday November 11, 2018

12 Nov

I heard such amazing, profound stuff in church this morning, but I can’t remember what any of it was. My ‘CRS’ disease is flaring tonight. You know the ‘Can’t remember stuff’ disease. I barely remembered my mealtime meds at lunch today. I gotta set more alarms. Good thing I got the paid app. No ads and unlimited alarms.

  • I’m grateful I stayed until the end of church today. First time since surgery I haven’t gone home early. I’m grateful to get all my wintertime woobies out of storage yesterday. We now have blankets everywhere. I’m grateful the furnace guys are coming this week. I’m going to ask them to check my thermostat. I’m having difficulty regulating my temperature since surgery. All the insulating fluffiness is going away.

Night all. LOVES