Let’s get started

19 Nov

Someone suggested I start a blog. I’m not sure how this will go, but here goes. This is just going to be my thoughts, feelings and things I find along the way.

Today I thought about starting a cookbook. Here’s the first recipe as I posted it on Facebook.

My favorite is “Whatchagot stew”. A package of meat from the freezer in the bottom of the pot. Yes, frozen. Who plans anymore? Add any and all veggies hanging out in the bottom of the chiller drawer, even the wilted ones. Some potatoes and onions if you got them. A can or two of whatever veggies you have in the cupboard and maybe a can of beans(with the liquid, potatoes always need salt). Add a seasoning packet or two from a ramen package, save the noodle part for later. Add some water, usually half a pot, don’t worry, it’ll make more. Let sit on low all day or high if you started at noon when you realize you forgot to plan dinner. Just before eating, check for taste. Probably needs salt, remember those potatoes? Also pepper, garlic powder, parsley if you’re lucky enough to have it. Now crush up those ramen noodles you saved from earlier and add them. Stir through. By the time you find all the kids and get them washed and to the table, dinner is ready. Just add milk and bread and butter. Said kids will love you forever. Or at least until you take away their phone for not taking out the garbage and helping with the dishes. Enjoy!

I also need a place besides Facebook to keep my Gratitude List.

  • Today I’m grateful to really start a blog. I hope it goes well. I’m grateful to be feeling better from my tooth extraction. It’s making me spunky. Grateful to have my child here today. No matter how often we fight, argue and generally disagree, I always have his back. I remember a time when he wasn’t sleeping across the room. LOVES

Where I’m at

17 Feb

Yesterday I wrote about trying to be grateful for what I CAN do instead of stressing about what I can’t. Today I’ve been thinking about being grateful for where I’m at NOW instead of worrying about where I should be.

I’m in a couple of groups on Facebook for coping with gastric surgery. Lately, all the posts have been about ‘I haven’t lost much weight’, ‘how much have you lost?’, ‘how come you seem to be losing more than me!’, ‘what’s wrong with me’. It feels defeating to go read everyone’s posts. So I’ve mostly quit reading them.

Yes, I did get surgery to help me lose weight, but I did it mostly to get healthier. I’m not focused on how much I’m losing. I eat the way I’m supposed to most of the time. My A1c is excellent. No more diabetic medications. I’m almost off my blood pressure medication. All of my clothes are too big. So I must be doing alright. I have no clue what I weigh today. I only get on a scale at the doctor’s office.

  • I’m grateful to be learning to be ok where I am and to not worry about the shoulds. I’m grateful to be getting healthier. I’m grateful to have a roof over our heads and food to eat.

Night all. LOVES

I am not my tasks

15 Feb

This has been an interesting week. I’ve had lots of body pain that has been preventing me from doing all the things I’ve wanted to do. As the weight has come off, I’ve been able to do more things. So when I have a setback, I add stressing about what I can’t get done today on to all the other stresses I seem to find. Which causes more stress and leads to falling into a vicious circle.

Today I was watching a video on YouTube of The Frey Life where they talk about “What is something that you wish you could do but can’t because of your disease?” She has cystic fibrosis. I’m sure the person who asked the question wanted to know if there was some big thing that Mary wanted to do but couldn’t. But she answered the things she wishes she could do but can’t are the dishes, the laundry, the everyday things that a normal person usually can do. She said that she says, “I am not my tasks!”  to help her deal with the day to day things that she sometimes can’t do.

It struck home to me that THAT is how I feel sometimes. I have never hid the fact that I hate to do dishes. But since my surgery, I have been happy to do them because I CAN. Until this week. I’ve been slacking on the dishes because it hurts too much to stand there.

I need to vacuum my house. I know that it will probably help my sneezing and ability to sleep because of my allergies, but I can’t. I hurt too much to do it. And I know if I do it anyway, it will mean something else probably won’t. Like making sure my son has something to eat.

I need to remember that my life is not defined by WHAT I’m doing or not doing. I fell that my life should be defined by HOW I deal with what is set before me by making the best of everything I get. I need to remember “I did the best I could with what I had at the time.” 

  • I’m grateful I was in too much pain today to do something besides lie there watching YouTube because I never would have heard what I did. I’m grateful that my Higher Power puts things in front of me to remind me of what’s important. I’m grateful I GET to learn to be ok with where I am right now and to learn to not stress over what I can’t.

Night all. LOVES

Thursday, February 14, 2019

15 Feb

The whole world seems to be fixated on today being Valentine’s Day. But for me, it’s just another Thursday. I don’t have a special valentine, nor do I really want one at the moment.

I spent my morning doing pool exercises then grocery shopping. I spent the afternoon trying not to move too much because my hips and legs still hurt. But I’m not as stiff as I was yesterday, so that’s an improvement.

I’m spending my evening reading, playing games on my phone and occasionally having discussions with my teenager about whatever I can drag out of him about his day. He’s not very willing most of the time.

  • I’m grateful to get some bread, milk, cereal, yogurt, and eggs today. The basics of life. I’m grateful I didn’t have to go out and about on the bus today. It was cold and wet out. I’m grateful to be relaxing on my couch with my youngest tonight. A quiet evening for both of us.

Night all. LOVES

Wednesday, February 13, 2019

14 Feb

I had bad dreams last night and woke up all tense and I’ve hurt all day. I haven’t eaten well today and that hasn’t helped the situation. All I can do is start over tomorrow.

  • I’m grateful to the neighbor for treats for my son. I’m grateful to be going to the pool tomorrow. I’m grateful tomorrow is a new day.

Night all. LOVES

Tuesday,February 12, 2019

13 Feb

It’s late, I’m tired, I’m just getting home from my housing meeting and I still need to get us both to bed. So just a quick gratitude list tonight.

  • I’m grateful to get a ride home on this dark and stormy night. I’m grateful to bring home leftovers from the meeting to feed my teenager. I’m grateful the fire alarm going off during the meeting was a false alarm.

Night all. LOVES

Monday, February 11, 2019

12 Feb

Just gratitude today. Not feeling well today.

  • I’m grateful to be able to be available for my sons when they need me. I’m grateful to have chicken in the oven for dinner. I’m grateful to see a smile on my youngest son’s face this afternoon.

Night all. LOVES

AND…its gone

11 Feb

Last week the forecast was for another week of winter with several snow storms and intense cold for the next week. There was the usual response to bad weather. A run on the grocery stores for bread, milk, eggs, and for some strange reason, kale. The lines at the gas stations were long and frustrating. Everything was cancelled for the weekend.

Then this morning woke up with the sun shining, all the snow melted and a slight breeze in the air. Just checked the weather report for tomorrow because my child wants to stay up late because there shouldn’t be school tomorrow.

Most forecasts for snow have evaporated. The expected moisture is still headed this way, but the temperatures just aren’t going to cooperate. Just heavy rain for the week. There goes the last reasonably good chance for another snow day this year.

  • I’m grateful for the snow we did get, although I wish it was more. I’m grateful that I have a huge umbrella because I’m going to need it this week. I’m grateful the weatherdudes worked so hard this past week to help get us prepared for a storm, even if it fizzled in the end. I’d rather be too prepared than not at all.

Night all. LOVES