Let’s get started

19 Nov

Someone suggested I start a blog. I’m not sure how this will go, but here goes. This is just going to be my thoughts, feelings and things I find along the way.

Today I thought about starting a cookbook. Here’s the first recipe as I posted it on Facebook.

My favorite is “Whatchagot stew”. A package of meat from the freezer in the bottom of the pot. Yes, frozen. Who plans anymore? Add any and all veggies hanging out in the bottom of the chiller drawer, even the wilted ones. Some potatoes and onions if you got them. A can or two of whatever veggies you have in the cupboard and maybe a can of beans(with the liquid, potatoes always need salt). Add a seasoning packet or two from a ramen package, save the noodle part for later. Add some water, usually half a pot, don’t worry, it’ll make more. Let sit on low all day or high if you started at noon when you realize you forgot to plan dinner. Just before eating, check for taste. Probably needs salt, remember those potatoes? Also pepper, garlic powder, parsley if you’re lucky enough to have it. Now crush up those ramen noodles you saved from earlier and add them. Stir through. By the time you find all the kids and get them washed and to the table, dinner is ready. Just add milk and bread and butter. Said kids will love you forever. Or at least until you take away their phone for not taking out the garbage and helping with the dishes. Enjoy!

I also need a place besides Facebook to keep my Gratitude List.

  • Today I’m grateful to really start a blog. I hope it goes well. I’m grateful to be feeling better from my tooth extraction. It’s making me spunky. Grateful to have my child here today. No matter how often we fight, argue and generally disagree, I always have his back. I remember a time when he wasn’t sleeping across the room. LOVES

Not 17 today

23 Apr

My son is 10 today. Not really. He will actually be 18 in August. But today? He’s acting somewhere between 4 and 12. The regressions are difficult. Especially when they come out of nowhere to slam upside your head. It just makes the day extra challenging to ride the bus and do our errands.

It started at therapy. He just curled up on the couch facing the wall and not talking. Then at Taco Bell, he was using the writing app on his phone to talk to me. Then he was crowding me on the bus and the bus stops. And all the way home, he’s talking in kid-speak(like a toddler). After we got home, he is sitting almost ON me because he needs to be close. To finish this post, I’m going to try to get him in his own chair by tucking the blanket in close around him.

Think its going to be an early bedtime. He is always super tired after one of these episodes. So am I. Just remember to breathe and to keep swimming. Tomorrow is a new day.

  • I’m grateful it didn’t start to rain until we walked in the back door. I’m grateful to find an exceptional deal on free range eggs at the super expensive natural store up the street. I’m grateful to know things are never the same way twice. If I keep saying it, it’s not such a surprise?

Night all. LOVES

Happy Easter

21 Apr

Just gratitude today.

  • I’m grateful for the gift of the Atonement by Jesus Christ and the miracle of his resurrection. I’m grateful to have had a great weekend with family. I’m grateful all the extras went home and it’s just my child, my cat, and myself here for the rest of the day.

Night all. LOVES

Easter Saturday

21 Apr

We had our community Easter egg hunt today. Just think,a dozen plus screaming kids, with their parents eating candy, pizza, and Capri sun, while running around screaming and scheming how to get the most eggs. Then there was a birthday party for one of the girls late this afternoon. Most of the same kids, but eating cake with a ton of frosting and raspberry filling. Its was delicious.

My son’s dad and siblings are here for Easter. So inside my house is busyness. But it’s only for a couple of days, so it’ll be okay. And it makes my son happy. His middle brother was here as well. So he feels very loved tonight.

  • I’m grateful to make it through today only hiding in my house a couple of times. I’m grateful to only had one small piece of cake and one piece of candy. But I blew it out of the water because I ate 2 pieces of pizza. I’m grateful my tummy is finally starting to feel better after eating so crappy today.

Night all. LOVES

Phoneless afternoon

20 Apr

I had an interesting afternoon. I actually forgot my phone at home. After a few moments panic, I accepted the inevitable. Guess what? I didn’t miss it that much. Just when I was at the bus stops home to check on arrival times. And sitting in the doctor’s office because I didn’t have my Kindle to read. It was actually very quiet and peaceful. I’m thinking I’m going to shut it off more often.

  • I’m grateful to have lunch with my two older boys today and dinner with my youngest. I’m grateful to finally be home after being caught in the rain. I’m grateful for peace and quiet today. With only moments of withdrawal.

Night all. LOVES

Made a mountain

19 Apr

I blew up at a neighbor tonight and I feel terrible about it. I let my bad attitude and not feeling well bleed out into the courtyard and something that normally is a mole hill become a mountain.

Now this neighbor won’t speak to me. I really would like to apologize for my bad behavior. Mostly because we have to live in the same place. It gets uncomfortable for everyone when part of the neighborhood is feuding. I figure I will try to speak to them tomorrow evening.

Until then, I apologized to all the other neighbors who were caught in the battle zone. And I’m going to work on some step stuff to get the evilness out of MY head and onto paper where it belongs.

  • I’m grateful my anger didn’t get bigger. And was over relatively quickly. I’m grateful to be where I am today and to try to keep my side of the street clean. I’m grateful it was good outside until it wasn’t. I’m venturing outside more often.

Night all. LOVES

And then…

18 Apr

It took me all day to do my dishes. I can only do them in bits and pieces before I have to sit down. It really kills my back because the counters are not built for 6 foot tall me. And my stomach muscles aren’t where I would like them to be yet.

I will admit that there are still a few dishes in the sink tonight as I go upstairs to bed. And the surfaces, counters, cupboards, stove and fridge could all use some attention.

But it would start a vicious cycle. If I washed the cupboard doors, I’d have to clean out the insides and wash them. Then I would have to do the lower cupboards, inside and out. And while I was down there, I’d see what the fridge and stove actually look like and I’d have to wash all that. And then with everything else all shiny and clean, the dingy floor would stick out and I’d have to scrub it on my hands and knees because I don’t own a real mop. Then I’d see that the walls and baseboards would have my mother haunting me, followed by the carpet and walls in the front room. And the next thing you know, I will have cleaned myself into my bed. Where I would stay forever because I was so sore and tired. And because IF I get up, it will get dirty again. And I will feel terrible.

So I’ll just muddle through with the status quo. And save up my money to pay someone else to deep clean my house. Because I really don’t feel well enough to feel terrible on top of it.

  • I’m grateful for what got done today. A clean sink smells better. I’m grateful my sink is almost clean enough to give the cat a bath. She really needs a spa day. I’m grateful that it’s supposed to be semi-warm this week. If it’s not warm enough for a cat spa day, maybe it’ll be warm and dry enough to repot my lucky bamboo.

Night all. LOVES

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

17 Apr

Just gratitude tonight. Really worn out tonight.

  • I’m grateful to get to all my appointments today. Even if I had to spend all day on the bus to do it. I’m grateful that after an IEP review today, my son IS on track to graduate. I’m grateful for Tylenol and ibuprofen to help after someone fell on me this afternoon on the bus. Everything is still sore. And an extra. I’m grateful to have nothing scheduled tomorrow so I can get caught up on my household chores. Especially the dishes. SIGH!

Night all. LOVES