Let’s get started

19 Nov

Someone suggested I start a blog. I’m not sure how this will go, but here goes. This is just going to be my thoughts, feelings and things I find along the way.

Today I thought about starting a cookbook. Here’s the first recipe as I posted it on Facebook.

My favorite is “Whatchagot stew”. A package of meat from the freezer in the bottom of the pot. Yes, frozen. Who plans anymore? Add any and all veggies hanging out in the bottom of the chiller drawer, even the wilted ones. Some potatoes and onions if you got them. A can or two of whatever veggies you have in the cupboard and maybe a can of beans(with the liquid, potatoes always need salt). Add a seasoning packet or two from a ramen package, save the noodle part for later. Add some water, usually half a pot, don’t worry, it’ll make more. Let sit on low all day or high if you started at noon when you realize you forgot to plan dinner. Just before eating, check for taste. Probably needs salt, remember those potatoes? Also pepper, garlic powder, parsley if you’re lucky enough to have it. Now crush up those ramen noodles you saved from earlier and add them. Stir through. By the time you find all the kids and get them washed and to the table, dinner is ready. Just add milk and bread and butter. Said kids will love you forever. Or at least until you take away their phone for not taking out the garbage and helping with the dishes. Enjoy!

I also need a place besides Facebook to keep my Gratitude List.

  • Today I’m grateful to really start a blog. I hope it goes well. I’m grateful to be feeling better from my tooth extraction. It’s making me spunky. Grateful to have my child here today. No matter how often we fight, argue and generally disagree, I always have his back. I remember a time when he wasn’t sleeping across the room. LOVES

Tuesday, April 24, 2018

25 Apr

Today is a gratitude day. It’s hot, my allergies are acting up, and I’ve been out and about to the child’s therapy this afternoon. I just wanna lie here in the dark in front of the a/c tonight.

  • I’m grateful that I left my a/c in over the winter because now I can use it without waiting for the maintenance guy to put it in. I’m grateful it was breezy today because it kept it from getting too hot until after we came home. I’m grateful to be sitting here listening to the child laughing at whatever he’s watching. It’s nice to hear him laugh.

Night all. LOVES

If it isn’t one thing

23 Apr

I almost fainted at the doctor’s office today. My blood pressure was 97/40! After sitting for 20 minutes, it was up to 107/50. Now I have another appointment on Thursday for more testing to see what’s up with my low blood pressure. Why must everything be connected? It would be so nice if I could work on fixing one thing at a time instead of trying to juggle everything at once. I don’t juggle well!

I’ve lost another half-dozen pounds and I think we’re going to need to adjust my insulin again. My sugar numbers are hanging out in the low zone again.

I picked up all my prescriptions today and I get to start taking them again. I can tell its been a few days without my psych meds. The strange dreams were bad last night. On the other hand, I shouldn’t have to get multiple pickup dates for my meds anymore. I got a flag from my doctor’s nurse put in my chart so the pharmacy can give me a multi-med pick-up date. Now they all have the same end date.

  • I’m grateful to my medical team for working with me to make it easier. I’m grateful to live in the apartment I do. It’s nice and cool in here while its hot outside. I’m grateful to make it home without fainting. This is gonna take some getting used to.

Night all. LOVES

Goal setback

22 Apr

I had a little hiccup in a goal this week. I ran out of time and it needs to be put off for a bit. It’s not a big deal and I’m still on track to complete it. Just not when I wanted to.

So how do I deal with it? Stay in bed under the covers. I know it’s not the best solution but it’s the one I’m going with for now. I’ll take today and then start over tomorrow.

It doesn’t help that I’m out of all my psych meds until tomorrow afternoon. I had to let some of them lapse so that they all had the same pickup day. It was just too hard to have 3 different pick up days through the month.

  • I’m grateful to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir for giving me uplifting music to concentrate on. I’m grateful to know that tomorrow is a new day. I’m grateful to Tylenol and allergy medicine for my headache.

Night all. LOVES

Afternoon excitement

21 Apr

It was Pinewood Derby & BBQ at the church this afternoon. Tons of yummy food, great companionship, and lots of excitement. Now that we’re home, I’m really thinking I might need a nap.

We inherited a car because we hadn’t built one of our own. It didn’t do too bad. My son is actually planning out his next car already. He talked to other people too! So it was an all around great afternoon.

  • Grateful to the couple that gave my son one of their cars. And about $2 in change for weight. Grateful to have mostly stayed on my diet today. Lots of veggies, a hot dog, no bun, & a little piece of carrot cake. You know carrots are veggies, right?! Grateful to my ward family for being so welcoming to us.

Night all. LOVES



21 Apr

Today I’m overwhelmed with gratefulness. I just keep doing the next right thing and I’m getting blessings right and left.

  • I’m grateful to have a new, cut the plastic bag off ourselves, mattress for Carson. I’m grateful for the kindness and generosity of others and the blessings they bestow on others. I’m grateful that it’s Friday afternoon and I don’t have an upset stomach yet.

Night all. LOVES

The sun came out

20 Apr

I have happily been a hermit for months. No need to go outside because the weather was dark, dreary, cold and wet. I didn’t have to people unless I wanted to and nobody expected anything different.

But now the sun has come out.  And that means it’s peopling season again. I will have to talk to people. And when I go out, I won’t be able to hide in my hoodie because it’s too hot to wear it.

It’s time for sunscreen and bug spray. Two things that don’t play well together. The bugs love the smell of the sunscreen and the bug spray washes off the sunscreen.

And horror of horrors, it’s time to shave my legs and underarms. Those parts have been just as happy as the rest of me to be indoors and under cover, not seeing the light of day. But now it needs to be done! And done frequently as some of those in society deem it’s correct. I probably should listen to my own advice when I told my sister to ignore what society says about being in a relationship and ignore said society about getting into a relationship with my razor. At least maybe put it off for a while and hope for rain!

  • I’m grateful to the weatherdudes. Especially the ones who like to forecast bad weather. They are my heroes. I’m grateful that maybe the sun will mean ice cube trays go on sale. I need some new ones. I’m grateful that I won’t get strange looks because my windows are open. They’ve actually been open 90% of the winter.

Night all. LOVES

Joshua Orin Webb

19 Apr

Today is an important day in my part of the woods. My middle son is 25 today. It’s also 3 months until my cleandate. I think that is significant because I’m clean today because this son turned me in to child protective services for using.

I was very angry at him for a while because he broke the “code”. You know the one, what happens here stays here and we don’t tell our families business to outsiders. As I’ve gotten further into this recovery journey though, I’ve learned that the “code” is to keep the family members sick and stuck in the hell they are in. If someone isn’t a whistle-blower, there will never be healing. It takes courage to be that whistle-blower and to take a stand saying enough is enough and this needs to end now.

I’m very vocal about how I got to the place I am. It’s all because of my Higher Power and the love of a child. His love for me and my love for him and his brothers. And to always be grateful for everything.

This year I’m very broke and I couldn’t get him a cake or anything for his birthday. So I’m giving him a post in my blog. I’m very proud of who he’s becoming and the principles and values he stands for. I love him very much and wish him the best year.

  • I’m grateful he showed up that early morning in April. Especially because he wasn’t due until the end of May. I’m grateful that he started out at 12 pounds and 3 ounces. He needed that extra strength he got from carrying the extra weight around to get him through all the bad times in his life. I’m very grateful for that knock on my door when Child Welfare showed up at my door asking me to pee in a cup. He saved my life and changed the course for all of us.

Happy Birthday!