Let’s get started

19 Nov

Someone suggested I start a blog. I’m not sure how this will go, but here goes. This is just going to be my thoughts, feelings and things I find along the way.

Today I thought about starting a cookbook. Here’s the first recipe as I posted it on Facebook.

My favorite is “Whatchagot stew”. A package of meat from the freezer in the bottom of the pot. Yes, frozen. Who plans anymore? Add any and all veggies hanging out in the bottom of the chiller drawer, even the wilted ones. Some potatoes and onions if you got them. A can or two of whatever veggies you have in the cupboard and maybe a can of beans(with the liquid, potatoes always need salt). Add a seasoning packet or two from a ramen package, save the noodle part for later. Add some water, usually half a pot, don’t worry, it’ll make more. Let sit on low all day or high if you started at noon when you realize you forgot to plan dinner. Just before eating, check for taste. Probably needs salt, remember those potatoes? Also pepper, garlic powder, parsley if you’re lucky enough to have it. Now crush up those ramen noodles you saved from earlier and add them. Stir through. By the time you find all the kids and get them washed and to the table, dinner is ready. Just add milk and bread and butter. Said kids will love you forever. Or at least until you take away their phone for not taking out the garbage and helping with the dishes. Enjoy!

I also need a place besides Facebook to keep my Gratitude List.

  • Today I’m grateful to really start a blog. I hope it goes well. I’m grateful to be feeling better from my tooth extraction. It’s making me spunky. Grateful to have my child here today. No matter how often we fight, argue and generally disagree, I always have his back. I remember a time when he wasn’t sleeping across the room. LOVES

Tuesday, January 21, 2020

22 Jan

We just came in from a basketball game for Grant’s Unified team. That’s the team Carson played for in high school. It was great to see all the kids and their adults. But I’m tired. It was an away game. An hour and a half home in traffic. It only took 40 minutes to get there.

  • I’m grateful to get some groceries today to fill my cupboards. It was getting close to Mother Hubbard here. I’m grateful for my friend giving us a ride and being willing to sit and cheer on the team. I’m grateful I haven’t caught the neighbor’s strep throat. I told them that they are grounded FROM my house!

Night all. LOVES

Peanut butter protein cookies

20 Jan

I’ve been having some problems lately with eating things I shouldn’t be eating or eating more than I should have. Cooking and baking are a couple of thinks that soothes my mind when its troubled. Hense my problem with food. Yes, I know I need to try other coping skills, but I’m in the kitchen doing dishes anyway. So today I came up with these babies.

To 1 cup crunchy peanut butter add 1 scoop of protein powder(my scoop is 50 grams), 1 large egg, 1/2 cup of powdered sugar, 1/2 cup dried cranberries, and 1/2 cup chocolate chips. Mix well and drop by spoonful onto a parchment lined cookie sheet. Bake at 350° F for 10 minutes or until set and browning around the edges. Remember that MY oven sucks! The goal is to eat ONLY 1 at a time. Giving some away to the neighbors too.

  • I’m grateful to get the last of the Christmas chocolate chips out of the house. I’m grateful my attempt at a healthyish cookie isn’t too bad. My food calculator says they aren’t terrible. I’m grateful to the neighbors for being semi-willing guinea pigs.

Night all. LOVES

Sunday, January 19, 2020

20 Jan

I went to church today. I didn’t decide until 20 minutes before I had to leave to get up and get ready to go. And I gave my unhealthy breakfast/snack away so that I wouldn’t eat anymore of it. Then came home and made a protein shake for lunch and tomato soup with assorted beans and hamburger for dinner. And I just refilled my water in my hydroflask. So that’s my small steps for today.

  • I’m grateful to my dream that had me thinking I had already said yes to my ride to church before I woke up. I’m grateful to listen to Rogers and Hammerstein all afternoon. I’m grateful to be here and to keep trying.

Night all. LOVES

Vicious circles

19 Jan

I am in the middle of a vicious circle. I’m emotional eating because I’m having some issues. The eating makes me more depressed which causes me to eat more which causes more mental anguish. And so on. I haven’t wanted to say anything because I haven’t wanted to be a whiner or to bring anyone else down. I also didn’t want to hear the ones who just say to smile and it will get better. I already know that nothing changes unless something changes. I don’t need anyone to tell that to me. So I’m just muddling through. A day at a time. One step at a time. Making little changes as I go. Butterfly wings above a pond.

  • I’m grateful my kitchen is still clean! I’ve been washing the dishes at least once a day. I’m grateful I started reading my scriptures again. I’ve been putting it off for a while. I’m grateful I’ve finally decided to start sharing my load. My backpack of rocks has been super heavy and I really need to share the load more often.

Night all. LOVES

Friday, January 17, 2020

18 Jan

Thank goodness its Friday. And a 3-day weekend. I’m hoping for no dreams this weekend, but especially I’d like no bad dreams. I’ve been waking up in a cold sweat at o’dark thirty and so tense that everything hurts all day.

  • I’m grateful to the neighbor for helping with dinner tonight. I’m grateful it was a 2 hour late start today because of snow. Although I DIDN’T get any! I’m grateful for 8 days of school out of the next 10. Two 3-day weekends in a row.

Night all. LOVES

Thursday, January 16, 2020

17 Jan

Just gratitude tonight.

  • I’m grateful to get downtown to my appointment today. I’m grateful to get my kitchen clean. I’m grateful to finish a couple of books today. On to the next.

Night all. LOVES

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

16 Jan

I spent $5 today at Wendy’s that I wasn’t expecting to. My youngest had therapy today and he always get to pick where we go to eat after. Today was Wendy’s. After we had ordered and were sitting down, some guy walked up and asked if we had any change so he could get a burger. I didn’t have any cash, but I went to the counter and bought him a Biggie Bag meal. Its a Jr bacon cheeseburger, 4 piece nuggets, friesb and a drink. The guy was hiding in the corner to eat. I think he might have been chased out of the store before.

  • I’m grateful that I had $5 to help. I’m grateful we made it home before the rain really started coming down. I’m grateful we had a productive day at therapy.

Night all. LOVES