Archive | October, 2018

Lazy or convenience?

31 Oct

My son and I live in a 2-story townhouse. The bedrooms and bathroom are upstairs and the kitchen, dining area and living room are downstairs.

This past month I’ve been staying upstairs most of the time. I really don’t like yelling downstairs to get my son’s attention. Especially because he usually has his ear buds in and can’t hear me anyway. So I will call him on the phone.

I have also been known to call him across the room when he is super engrossed in whatever he’s watching on his phone.

My question? Is it lazy or convenience? My honest opinion is its a bit of both. And I’m probably not going to quit anytime soon either.

  • I’m grateful I can afford phones for both of us. Not just for when we’re on different floors in the house. I’m grateful my son has really been stepping up while I’ve been recovering from surgery. I’m grateful he answers the phone 90% of the time.

Night all. LOVES

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Food logs are difficult

29 Oct

It’s been a month since my surgery. I have my one month check up with the doctor and nutritionist on Friday. I’m going to talk about the knot on my side where the hematoma is with the doctor.

With the nutritionist, I’m going to talk about my food logs. I’m supposed to write down everything I eat. Sometimes though I have a dilemma. I’ll write down what I’m placing on my plate as I’m fixing it. The phone sets next to the scale and measuring cup & spoons so I don’t have to remember a bunch of numbers later. Here’s where the dilemma is. If I get full, I stop eating. Even if there’s still food on my plate. I’m not a member of the clean plate club anymore.

So do I go back into my log and change the numbers? Even if there’s only a couple of tablespoons left? Or sometimes I’ll go back and finish it at the next meal. Then how do I log it? I’m not sure exactly how much I’ve eaten at either meal, but I know how much I’ve eaten for both. Its just confusing.

  • I’m grateful to be getting back on an even keel. I’m grateful to do my own dishes today. I’m grateful to not sleep all day.

Night all. LOVES

In an instant

28 Oct

I went to a Halloween potluck at church last night. I did really well at my first social outing involving food after my surgery. It was a soup night. Everyone brought their favorite soup to share. My favorite was a cream of broccoli.

The only downfall? One minute everything was great and I was having a good time. The next, I was exhausted. Just like a snap of the fingers. I think that’s one of the hardest things since surgery. One minute I’m fine and the next I’m not. There is no gradual decline. And if I don’t listen and keep trying to stick it out, it takes me forever to recover. I’ve been in bed most of the day today. Although I’m sure the low blood sugar early this morning hasn’t helped. All I can do is just keep trying. I’m sure I’ll be back to normal soon.

  • I’m grateful to go last night. It was fun to see everyone. I’m grateful for rides so that I can go to these type of functions. I’m grateful to rest today.

Night all. LOVES

Cookies

27 Oct

I love cookies! They are the best things ever if you’re having a bad day or want a little treat for a celebration. A pie or cake is too big. I don’t know about you, but I know my willpower isn’t strong enough to ignore a whole big confection without sampling it. In the past, I have been know to eat a pie in one setting. A cake in as little as 2-3. But a cookie is just the right size.

The only problem with cookies is that they tend to come in batches. There lies the rub. Batches of cookies fall into the pie and cake category. Too much of a good thing.

But one day I was searching the internet and came across a cookie recipe for a single cookie. Of course being me, I had to tweak and change it to make it my own. I don’t remember where I found the original recipe, but here is my version.

2 tbls softened butter, 1 tbls granulated sugar, 2 tbls brown sugar, 1 egg, half a capful vanilla, 1/4 tsp baking soda, 1/4 tsp salt, 4-6 tbls all-purpose flour, depending on whether you heap them or not. You want the mixture to resemble soft play dough so that you can roll it into a ball. You can also add 2 tbls sprinkles, chocolate chips or other such mix-ins. Toffee chips are amazing! Place ball on a parchment lined cookie sheet. Flatten a little. I usually make it look like a hockey puck. I use a small cookie sheet from my toaster oven. Bake at 325 F for 10-12 minutes or until starting to brown on the edges and the bottom is set. Makes one large cookie.

This is my favorite recipe for those times when a sweet treat was called for. There are many ways to change it up. I’ve used peanut butter in place of the butter. I’ll use oatmeal for part of the flour and add raisins. I’ve also doubled it a time or two and shared it with someone special.

  • I’m grateful I learned to bake at an early age. I’m grateful to have the confidence to experiment with recipes. It should help me with my new lifestyle changes. I’m grateful to Google because it knows everything!

Night all. LOVES

Changes

27 Oct

Thinking of David Bowie today. There’s been so many changes in my life. Sometimes its just really overwhelming. Even the good changes can be too much at once.

I found some old pictures of me this afternoon. I can’t believe how heavy I was. Especially compared to now. Its almost like I’m looking at someone I don’t even know depending on the day. Some days its that old me and some days its the new me that I don’t recognize.

I went grocery shopping this morning. It’s the first time I’ve been shopping since before my surgery. Someone else has been going for me. The store has changed and I couldn’t find anything. It wore me out to shop.

  • I’m grateful for the changes.  I’m grateful to know that I can accomplish things. I’m grateful to get to the store today.

Night all. LOVES

It’s raining

25 Oct

Its raining today. Most people would be bummed, but I think its relaxing to listen to the rain out my window. My room overlooks the parking lot and all the trees on the fence line. I don’t hear the traffic on the street and I can watch the animals. It just amazes me how many wild animals live in the middle of the city.

  • I’m grateful for the rain and the moisture it brings. I’m grateful to sit in a rocking chair watching out my window. I’m grateful for tomato soup. I miss the grilled cheese sandwich though.

Night all. LOVES

Must be a day

25 Oct

There has to be something in the air today. Everyone I know is grumpy, including me. My son and I are having a ‘discussion’ about video game content and whether or not its appropriate.

I’m babysitting a cat that is unhappy and throwing up everywhere. I don’t know what to do about it. I can’t afford a vet visit.

I’m dealing with terrible nightmares the last couple of nights and its playing with my peace of mind. Just not feeling it today.

  • I’m grateful someone came to do my dishes this evening. I’m grateful for stuff to eat, even if I’m getting bored with the monotony. I’m grateful to know that tomorrow is another day.

Night all. LOVES