Archive | July, 2018

Tuesday July 31, 2018

31 Jul

I have a sinus headache again today. Probably brought on by the weather change. I don’t even want to read very much. Its just gratitude today.

  • I’m grateful to always find something to be grateful for. Even when it seems impossible at the time. I’m grateful for books on tape. Definitely looking into it in the very near future. I’m grateful for electricity. It makes it cool enough for me to be comfortable under my heavy pressure Levi blanket that I kidnapped from my child.

Night all. LOVES


Clean sheets

30 Jul

There is nothing in the world quite like climbing into a fresh made bed with sheets dried outside. There are only two obstacles to achieving that goal. Cleaning the sheets and making the bed.

I did the sheets this morning. I know washing sheets by hand isn’t easy, but I didn’t have the money to use the machine downstairs. So I washed them in the tub and rinsed them with the hose outside early this morning. Then hung them on the railing by my door. They smell so good between the citrus soap and the sunshine.

The other obstacle is making the bed. I honestly think its the more difficult chore of the two. Taking everything off the mattress, and then putting the clean bedding back on it. Because my bed is against the wall, it involves lifting the mattress up to reach the back corner.

All in all though, I feel the effort is so worth it. I’m looking forward to bedtime tonight. That is definitely going to be one of the things on my list for before surgery. Have my bed freshly made to come home to. I think that would be a huge comfort.

  • I’m grateful I learned to wash clothes by hand. It really helps satisfy the feeling of a job well done. Especially when money is tight. I’m grateful my mother made me learn how to make a bed with ‘hospital corners’. It makes the bed look neat to go with the clean. I’m grateful for the hot sunshine today that made my early morning effort so much easier.

Night all. LOVES

Sunday, July 29, 2018

29 Jul

Just my list today. I’m feeling pretty miserable. My sinuses are yelling at me. My head is yelling at me and my stomach is really unhappy today. Thinking I’m spending most of my day in my air conditioned room under the covers.

  • I’m grateful to be alive and sorta well. I’m grateful to have my cold cave to crawl in and hide today. I’m grateful to know that this will be over soon.

Night all. LOVES

Ending with a headache.

29 Jul

I spent all day with friends. We went to a baby shower a couple of hours away. Then went to two recovery meetings tonight. I had a good time, but I think I need to space my peopling out some. My anxiety is high. My stomach hurts and I’ve had a killer headache for the last 3 hours. Time for Aleve and bed.

  • I’m grateful to see people I haven’t seen in years today. I’m grateful to hear good stuff at the meetings. I’m extra grateful to finally be home in my air conditioned house. My friend really NEEDS to fix hers!

Night all. LOVES

Healthier? muffins

28 Jul

Because I was sidetracked yesterday, here’s my muffin recipe from the other day. The neighborhood guinea pigs seemed to love them.

In a blender, add 3 cups shredded zucchini, 1 cup shredded carrots, 3 bananas, 1 cup of applesauce, 1 egg, and 6 tablespoons of softened butter. Blend until combined. Add 1/4 cup brown sugar, 1/2 cup granulated sugar, 1 tablespoon vanilla, 3 cups of old fashioned oatmeal, 1 tablespoon cinnamon,1 teaspoon nutmeg, 1 teaspoon baking soda, 1 tablespoon baking powder, 1 scoop vanilla protein powder, and 1 scoop of berry protein powder. You could probably use any flavors you want. And these are moist enough that you could add a third scoop if you would like. I just wanted the neighbors to eat them. Blend until combined. I folded in 1 cup of raisins. You could leave the raisins out or substitute chocolate chips and/or nuts if you prefer. Pour into well greased muffin tins. You could also use liners. Bake in a 350 F degree oven for 15 minutes, rotate pans and cook for another 15 minutes or until a wooden skewer comes out mostly clean. Let cool in pans for at least 15 minutes. If you take them out too soon, they crumble. Experience speaking here. Then cool on a rack. Unless you’re like me and shared them with the neighbors while they were still warm. This made 24 muffins.

  • I’m grateful these went over so well. They are definitely a do over. I’m grateful today seems to have a better attitude. I’m grateful my shot doesn’t seem to be bothering me today. Yet.

Night all. LOVES

Things change

26 Jul

I was going to write another recipe about what I did with some more of the produce I bought this week, but I just saw something that I feel is more important to talk about.

I’m sure you’ve heard about Demi Lovato’s relapse. It just makes me sad that she had a really bad day. Because that’s what it was. A really bad day. That’s what addiction is. A whole bunch of days strung together. Some good, some great, some bad, and some just heartbreaking. But all it comes down to it is just one day. One of the sayings you hear in meetings all the time is “One day at a time”.

Some people’s reactions to the relapse is one of the reasons I’m not on Facebook as much anymore. The hate and vile these people are saying just makes me mad. Because that could be me! There but for the grace of God goes I.

Why should I spend all this time and effort to make my life better if all anyone is going to think is “Why should I help her, she is just a stupid addict”, “Its her own fault she’s like this, she chose that life”, “I don’t think addicts deserve to live!” I realize that what others think of me is none of my business, but hearing that crap every single day wears on you. You feel defeated. Why do you think its so hard to quit using and drinking? Because its hard to try to change. And having so many negative thoughts and comments directed AT YOU just makes it harder!

No wonder this world is so screwed up. There doesn’t seem to be much compassion for others anymore. No one cares about their fellow man. Its all just an ‘all about me’ world we live in now. Things change. And not always for the better.

  • I’m so grateful for another day. Good or bad, I’m here. I’m grateful to my Higher Power for telling me I’m worth it loud enough to drown out all the negativity most of the time. I’m grateful that I’ve been able to string together a whole bunch of ‘one day at times’.

Night all. LOVES

Green bean salads

26 Jul

Since I went to the farmer’s market yesterday, I figured I should probably tell you how I used my produce.

The first thing I did was a simple salad with peas that I washed, and cut up. If the pods looked yucky, I just used the peas inside. Then I added some green beans that I trimmed and cut into bite sized pieces. Then I added some slivered red onion, a radish hanging out in the bottom of the bag and a Roma tomato, diced. Then I added some shredded cheese and 3 ounces of drained hamburger. I just used ranch dressing that I added some honey mustard to.

Then I made a quick pickle salad. I used a cucumber, about 3 cups sliced, some zucchini, also about 3 cups, I half peeled the cucumber and sliced it into rounds and the zucchini I cut into half rounds so they looked different. Then I added more slivered red onion. That thing is almost as big as a newborn’s head! And I still have half of it left. Then a 1/3 pound of my green beans, trimmed and cut into bite sized pieces again.

Then I made the pickle brine. I juiced half a lemon, getting as much of the pulp as I could, added 1/2 cup white vinegar, 3 tablespoons sugar, and a 1/4 cup water. I seasoned it with black pepper, garlic powder, sriracha, and seasoned salt. Poured it over everything thing, put a lid on and shook everything together.

As I was putting the sugar away, I saw the garlic I brought home yesterday and decided to put a couple of cloves in. I really need to get a better knife. I couldn’t it get very well minced and now some of the chunks are a bit big. I’m hoping the pickle brine will mellow them out some. I’m not really worried though. I’m the only one eating it, and I can pick out what I don’t want to eat.

I still need to figure out what to do with half a red onion and half a zucchini. The half I have left probably weighs a pound or more. The whole thing barely fit in the fridge and I only used the smaller neck end. Guess its back to Google.

  • I’m grateful for the veggies. Especially the leftovers from the cooking class. That’s where the radish, half a lemon, tomato, red onion, and head of garlic came from. I’m grateful to live in Portland where the tap water is amazingly delicious. I drink too much water to have to pay for it all the time. I’m grateful Google for giving me the idea for the quick pickles. I improvised the recipe I found.

Night all. LOVES